I guess I only care about myself and I dont matter #13593997
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hearts on a string, countdown till death day. nobody knows this exists. my feelings are never valid no matter if i vent to somebody or not. being the therapist of the group isnt fun. i feel lost in my own mind like i dont belong in my body. but who can i tell? that person who makes everything i say about themselves. just kill me already. im not masculine enough for them. i am feminine and invalid. i hate myself and my body. im not good enough. i just pour my trauma into jokes and poems likes its jolly and funny. im so depressed now because of my own partner. never responding. never caring. is it my fault? i just talk to myself now. im so depressed. I was finally loved by somebody. I finally had a nice relation ship. now its all messed up and im lost in it. im sick at my stomach. i hate this. i want to cry and speak to somebody but thats embarassing. where did my right to cry go?
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| Measured (UTC) | Members | Change |
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| 20 Aug 2026, 10:02 | 2 | first reading |
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